understanding my method of understanding

Recently more than ever it would seem that what i say (in the way i choose to say things) and the things i do (what i choose to do) have come about to have the power of making me confusing.
it happens in with my family, some college mates, church friends, and friends from study groups... i don't think I've left anyone out...
now, the reason I'm explaining this is because I've just simply become plagued with instances where I'm in a position where i have to explain. explain what? lemme explain...
eg:-
there's the initial question (or comment/statement, whatever)-just as 1 example.. and the person asking, I'm sure, is awaiting a reply to (a) try to understand me a little bit more, in regards to how i 'tick'. (b) incriminate me, like a loaded question or comment or statement or whatever. (c) an honest question, nothing implied but to receive an opinion. on top of other thoughts, these are just to name a few that go through my head... and in order for me to respond how i believe is appropriate i have to take into consideration the context of where the question is coming, why its being asked, why I'm being asked, who is the person asking me, in what tone was it asked and is there a 'tell' the the person is putting across (with facial expressions, nerves, nervous movement. once that's calculated comes the my thought, my answer.
and here's the first glitchy part-- i understand what I'm thinking. and there's certain times (...or most times) i don't want to simply just come out and say it, why? for reasons that relate to my past, operating on impulse never quite served me well. i can think of a myriad of moments where i may have said the first thing that came to mind and it just wasn't pretty, for me, others, my credibility. so i imply my answer in a choice of words that is open for misinterpretation, if what I've said has been taken out of context (from the conversation at hand).

so there's the question, my answer, my implication through the choice of words and then comes what the questioner hears, understands, and his/her reaction soon after.
and by all means, i do not limit this to just words and mind games but also in my actions. my writings, my own thoughts- i confuse myself sometimes. but then confusion contributes to helping me understand myself better...(imnotcrazyimnotcrazyimnotcrazy...)

now, I'm not always right- so that doesn't help the situation, other times i am right, by God's word, or truth of actual events (I'm speaking in regards to my personal life, personal experiences...really it all comes down to reality.. in this case my reality.)
and finally, something I'm not at liberty to make certain, that's the certainty of truth. is it black? is it white? (because most of what i say is gray.) do you question furthur, so that i take you deeper into the hole (be it of my own digging or an other's)? or do we leave it at that?

let my 'yes' be 'yes' and my 'no' be 'no'. judge not, but discern. learn me.

can you see what eye see?

yours truly,
David E. C.