simply another perspective away

'where's your head at?' -a song you might have heard of (by basement jaxx), something i used to say to my sister back when i first heard those lyrics, a memory triggered by my current mental status.
last couple of days, weeks to be exact... it's like i've stopped caring. stopped caring about almost everyone and almost everything.
the people that i used to love talking to now jsut seem to blab on, others are in a mutual situation where it's greetings, minor small talk followed by an on going awkward silence.
i can't seem to put a finger on 'why'. funnily enough i recently finished reading this book over the holiday season and something that stood out to me was selflessness. something i didnt struggle with as much as i do now.
as i mentioned, i dont care about what people have to say, it doesnt really bother me how they feel, how they slept or what happened today, i may ask as an act of civility, il make my body language appear interested, use the 'yea' 'oh-ok' 'mhmm' but in actually fact thats not whats going on inside... i have even learned to retain some information, disregard other information. now my problem is that i was sure that i had dealt with this, truth is i had. i gues as seasons change and cycle, so has this issue come back. evolved. see it's not about the different faces anymore, now its the one face, the one i've learned to manipulate and gets easily irritated.
here i am blabbing on, talking about how i dont care about others atm, if you're still reading i admire your patience, thankyou for your time and pray that i may someday be able to repay you for the time you've invested in reading this.

David.